Me, myself and I
I haven’t written an entry for ages. I’ve been away on a college trip to Belfast so all my attention has been on that, from buying new clothes, to conserving energy. Now I am home and feel like a new woman. It is only in retrospect that I have realised what has been wrong with me for the past year or more. Yes, I have had the kids, the partner, the house etc, but what has been missing is “me”, Lara. I have felt like an empty shell, devoid of any real personality. I have laughed, played along with the jokes and put on a brave face, but the real essence of my personality has been missing. What has caused this to happen, you may ask. It is partly that boring old reason….lack of money. I am not in any way materialistic, but when all around you are buying what they need and you cannot even afford the basics for your children, I defy anyone to be all smiles. My kids do OK. I have managed to acquire hand-me-down clothes for the 2 littlest and the older ones do OK from their dad and b...